Watch Me Go.....

Tuesday, 27 September 2011

Come On....

Just a quick litttle message...... im sooo frustrated that im still on the mushies and no solids yet i wanna get my band tighten so I can really start my weightloss..... Sorry for venting im just frustrated!!!!! arghhhh

Monday, 19 September 2011

Full Fluids Time

So I have completed my clear fluids stage... yay! it wasnt too bad I wasnt really hungry till my 5th day so happy about that.... I weighed in today... drum roll please.........284.5... which means I lost 12lbs during the clear liquids..... hopefully the next 7 days will be easy enough to get through.

Friday, 16 September 2011

Clear liquids

Lord... these gas pains are a pain!!! my left shoulder feels like someone is stabbing it! I'm not very hungry, but I'm sure that will be changing. I have 2 more days on this diet then I go on to the full liquids... yay.... just wanted to give an update.. hopefully next time i'm on the pain will be gone!

Wednesday, 14 September 2011

Officially Banded

So Today is day 1 of my liquid diet and im feeling ok. I'm sore the gas pains come and go, sleep time I think was the worst, then I took some drugs and felt much better. As for the actual surgery, lol it was interesting... I was not expecting to be in stir ups.... i started asking them if I was going to be giving birth they laughed then drugged me to sleep, when I woke up and walked over to me recovery room I was in and out of sleep then they brought me some water, I had drank almost the whole cup then felt sick. I ended up throwing up my water, but it was from the anesthesia I was fine after that. Overall the experience so far isn't bad. I just want this gas to go away.....

Tuesday, 13 September 2011

Monday, 12 September 2011

My Goal Treats

So I have decided that I am going to start a troll beads bracelet, its like a pandora's. For every goal of mine I hit i will purchase a troll bead to show myself my achievement. I think that will be a good way to remind myself! :)... any of you ladies treat your self's with a goal prize?

Weigh-In Last Day of Detox!

So today is my last detox day since my surgery is TOMORROW!!! i decided to weigh-in and I am now 296.5, im back in the 2's yay! I cant wait for when that number is a 1, and i'll be in Onederland!!! So i've lost 4.5 in the last week, bringing my total to 15lbs since starting my whole journey.... and Tomorrow and when my new one starts.... im really excited havent felt nervous yet but im assuming I wont get much sleep tonight! anybody have any tips for before or after my surgery?

Friday, 9 September 2011

Rant & Raves!!

So as much as i wish i didn't live at home with the parents I do, im saving to buy my own place. But man they are driving me up the wall.... theres the normal stuff thats just annoying which is fine. but it makes me laugh when the say, oh will do whatever we can to help you yadda yadda with this whole diet thing! Let me explain a very important thing.... DIET! that would is not in my vocabulary, I don't believe in them, they don't work, it's a lifestyle change!  But back to the origin of my rant.... they say all this stuff and then bring home cakes, chocolate, donuts and all these other things that normally they never do, but now that im detoxing and surely can't even have a bite they put it out infront of me and just shovel it in to their mouths.... It's so annoying! on top of all that i feel like my creative mojo is gone at the moment... im a photographer and just don't feel anything creative also frustrating...

Any who enough rants... moving on to the rave! my surgery is in 4 days! 3 if i dont include the actual day of!! thats very exciting!

Tuesday, 6 September 2011


I'm so bored today..... I work from home editing photos so I get to look at pretty women and make them look even better..... so boring!!! boredom makes me wanna eat! but im gonna be good today .... hopefully the rain can stop and i can go for a walk!

Monday, 5 September 2011

Last Depressing Detox Week!

Woo Hoo... I woke up this morning and realized it's MONDAY!! which means my surgery is exactly a week tomorrow!! which means i'm almost done this depressing detox! I know that this detox is a good thing, it's the start of my journey but my god does it make me angry! but now im happy knowing the liquids are on there way... who would've thought that i'd be excited for the liquids.... NOT ME!... but I am. That just means i'm one step closer to unleashing the sexy bitch that hidden inside here somewhere.

Side of Fries: I'm super excited to have all you fabulous women now in my life.... but since the surgery is creeping up quickly I still freak ut a bit which i know is normal.... my biggest concern with this whole thing was to be able to have children after, dr. yau says of course.... so I guess my questions is has anyone one of you who have been banded or know anyone who was and then had children?

Sunday, 4 September 2011

Challenging Day

Today is gonna be a rough one.... i'm going to my grandparents house for lunch... but dont plan on eating there since i know the sunday meal and none of it is on my detox..... My grandparents house for me is like the eating vortex... you could eat a huge meal before entering that house but the minute your in that door it's like your stomach opens up like a vortex and just wants to take everything in! Also majority of the family will be there and they don't know my plans i dont think its any of there business.... I just know i'm going to get annoyed with there comments. i don't think theres ever been a family get together that they havent made a comment about my weight.... i really just wanna tell them all to FUCK OFF and deal with there own issues instead of mine, but i dont I just smile and say i don't know what your saying im a anorexic compared (I point at my skinny cousin) that's the obese one.... its a joke we play since im always too fat and shes always to skinny according to them.
I'm just so tired of hearing the words "such a pretty face but" i've never been a thin girl... always been chubby and grew from there but I can't wait until I can shove that sentence down their throats..... RANTING sorry, i'm pmsing and annoyed with this detox so I woke up on the wrong side of the bed.... anyways ladies you have a good day and hopefully i wont attack anyone with a burger in hand!

Saturday, 3 September 2011

Mini Frustration

Lord.... I did it again... I step on the scale only to see this whole second week of detox i haven't lost a single pound.... I don't get it. I have been eating whts on the list yet ive seen no results.... so frustrating! I did cheat this week but only once and I've been super good since.... maybe it was the fact that I didnt much cuz I felt no hunger..... I'm just happy I only have one more week!!

Side Note: I've been reading all the BOOBs Blogs and they are so inspirational.... then i was reading some forums and got a little scared from the horror stories.

What would you ladies say has been the hardest part so far being banded?

Friday, 2 September 2011

To Scale Or Not To Scale....

I'm not sure about any of you.... but i am what you would call a scale WHORE! I am constantly jumping on it. It's the worst thing on it there isn't a morning that passes that i don't step on it to see that i've only gone down .5lbs or none at all..... How do you stop yourself? eeeeek i really need to work on that. On a side note, I spoke to one of the nutritionist Ashley, and she helped me figure out a few ways to help keep myself sane on this detox since i still have another week and a half.... The more and more i'm on here reading all the bandsters blogs, it makes me more and more excited to see my own journey to getting healthy and finally seeing the real me in the mirror.... yay!

Thursday, 1 September 2011

Matter of Time

It took a week and half before I broke own and cheated on this detox... eeeek! today was just a bad day. Worst part is that I did knowingly! But tomorrow is a new day and I cant keep crying over this I'm in the process of changing my lifestyle for good... so im gonna have to find a better way to handle things like this....

The Start Of It All

I'm officially getting banded on Sept.13 2011. I'm excited and nervous all at the same time. I have tried all those other diets out there, atkins, weight watchers, low crab, no carb..... you get the point. I've reached my highest weight and my lowest point. I feel I have no other choice now and must do something drastic to help kick my ass in gear.

Because of how big I am I have to do a 3 week detox..... SHOOT ME NOW!! I'm currently on week 2 and ready to kill anyone who eats a burger around me. I'm craving certain food.. burgers.... but not as hungry this week as last... so either thats a good thing or a bad :/  I just hope next week will fly by and No one will get hurt.